Monday, Apr. 04, 2005
Squire To Kings Bishop
Argh... I tried to make some changes to my diary. Bottom line, I SHOULD have a mix of private and public entries. Unfortunately life didn't work out that way so I backtracked and erased and hopefully my diary should be public again sooner or later, though given the flux state of Diaryland, who knows.
For those who could access my diary while it was private, you should be able to use the same password combo now to access private entries. The links will be to the left, as always.
I thought Boss took my resignation very well. He later corrected that misconception on my part, but oh well. The downside to knowing each other for so long is he knows just how to get to me - he thinks. If you hurl insults, scream, rant, or get violent, it rolls off my back like water off a duck. Other tactics are hit-and-miss and depend on your credibility factor in my eyes.
This entry was typed out previously and I naturally clicked the wrong window, closing it. Darn. I'm just waaay too tired for words. And very, very relieved to be getting the heck out of here. I will get my plane ticket this weekend when I get paid. My last day at work is the 29th; I have already sold some of my things, 00 will be getting some of them (though heaven knows where she'll PUT some of them) and some will undoubtedly go to my sister. I'll be selling the rest, probably in a yard sale.
I will definitely have to buy will be a large suitcase. All I have now in that line is a carry-on case. I'll be shipping my computer and my stereo by FedEx, along with my bedding and a few personal items. Not sure how many days I'll be offline due to that, but that's fine with me, too. I'm not shipping my monitor, tempting as it is, because it would literally cost me $50 to ship it and there's too much risk of it being damaged in transit. I'll pull my hard drive, as that's the most fragile part of the computer. It'll get wrapped separately in bubble wrap for extra protection. I don't know if I'll tuck it into the middle of my suitcase or if it would actually be safer mailed in its own separate package.
I hate the prospect of starting over from scratch, in some respects; but the reality is that this time I'm selling what I have, not losing it; and if I didn't believe that the destination holds better things for me, I wouldn't be going.
Ugh... It's 11:42pm and I still have to produce and transfer the news for tomorrow. I still have a month to go. I intend to get through this month and intend to get into a better situation once it's over.
Before - After
In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )