Wednesday, Jul. 20, 2005
This is going to be a short entry as I took some melatonin and plan to head for bed very, very soon.
Made peace with T - and more. Long story and a lot of personal details I won't divulge, but I crossed the last bridge and decided I may be looking at a reason to turn in my running shoes, without regret or a look back. I even gave him the URL to this diary, if that tells you anything.
It's kind of ironic, but that simple action was a pivotal thing for me. I had been toying with the idea of pointing him here, and in the course of looking over my last couple of weeks' entries, I re-read what I'd said about him. I guess it finally sunk in that this is the kind of person you run TO, not away from, not with what I know now. When I pointed him here, even before talking to him about some of the things he read, I felt like the world had just lifted off of my shoulders.
I have to call it a night. Very little sleep for the past couple of nights; talking late has a tendency to mess with your sleep patterns, but you know what? It was worth every yawn and the caffeine drip the past couple of mornings.
Before - After
In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )