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Saturday, Jul. 23, 2005
I Have The Power

While browsing diaries here this morning, I read about a free astral chart on boxx9000's page. She didn't put in a link, but of given that I live by the law of Google, it wasn't too difficult to track down a site, whether or not it was the one she used to calculate her chart.

I actually dug out my birth certificate to check the time. How's that for anal?

Actually it was kind of interesting... in a train-wreck kind of way. It's crazy when this impersonal site gets so much right, particularly given what a convoluted and contradictory personality I have.

The site is here. You plug in a name (I only used a first name) the place you were born and the date and time, and it spits out both a graphic and text interpretation of your life.

Keep in mind that I give this result a credibility rating only slightly greater than the "Which dysfunctional cross-dressing Smurfette Doll on the beach are you?" I believe that we are formed by thousands of forces, internal and external, and that we are ultimately governed by choice.

The lines in dark red are my asides on the site's comments.

Name: LeiLani
November 28 1957
11:05 AM Time Zone is CST
(Location removed for Diaryland post)

Rising Sign is in 05 Degrees Aquarius
You like new ideas and concepts, but you prefer to discover them by yourself -- it is not easy for others to convert you to anything. You form your own opinions, but once you do form them, you then want to convince everyone else that they are correct. Try to be more tolerant of the opinions of others. You have a deep and abiding interest in science, mathematics, and the great social problems of the day. Very sympathetic toward the downtrodden, equality is your battle cry! You demand that those in authority be fair to all. You are an intellectual -- emotions and emotional people are difficult for you to understand. Got that right! You are known for being calm, cool, detached and objective.

Sun is in 06 Degrees Sagittarius.
Very fun-loving, spirited and energetic, you have a huge reservoir of physical energy within you that needs to be released. As such, exercise or sports are very important to you. They missed on that one. Sports are okay but definitely not my thing. Quite gregarious, you enjoy being with other people, but you tend to avoid emotionally restrictive or intimate relationships. That's true; I like people and enjoy interaction but when it's time to go home I require at least some solitude, or I will implode. That's probably why I don't do well, in general, in intimate relationships. If Im suffocated or pressed, I will walk away, as I've said before. It's a sort of social claustrophobia. Constantly curious about the broader issues of life, you may at times be quite careless and sloppy about details -- you tend to leap to conclusions before all the facts are in. Also sadly VERY true - however, in a lot of cases my instincts are dead-on, even when I leap before I look. An avid reader, you are totally enthusiastic about any given subject should it interest you. You are known for being idealistic, generous, sociable, cheerful and very positive!

Moon is in 29 Degrees Aquarius.
Very freedom-oriented, you must always be able to do what you wish, no matter what. You become stubborn and recalcitrant when others try to force you into a mold. You are a true democrat -- you are not a follower, but you enjoy being with those who are like-minded. You appreciate emotional self-control -- you practice it yourself and you look for it in others. True, but sometimes the emotional control is isn't all it's cracked up to be. It only took me 47 years for it to sink in that Vulcans are fictional characters. 100 percent emotional control not only isn't possible for us flesh-and-blood human beings, it isn't healthy to suppress it to the degree I've done. You solve problems, including emotional ones, with your brains and intellect, not your feelings. Try to be tolerant of those who have powerful and obvious emotional responses -- not everyone is as objective, cool, dispassionate and detached as you are.

Mercury is in 24 Degrees Sagittarius.
Your mind is very curious and inquisitive, always seeking information on a wide variety of topics. The broader the subject matter (philosophy, science, religion, metaphysics), the more it will appeal to you. You prefer to deal with abstractions -- the small but important details associated with any subject tend to slip your grasp. You are known for being blunt, honest and truthful.

Venus is in 22 Degrees Capricorn.
You tend to keep your feelings under control -- emotions are only released in serious or important situations. You are distrustful of others whose behavior could be judged excessive or immoderate. As such, you prefer to relate only to those who are older than you or to those whose position is such that respect and duty are more important for both of you than passion or emotional response. Be careful, however, of relationships that are merely based on practicality or utility or you will ultimately be lonely. I'm gettin' there, hehe.

Mars is in 13 Degrees Scorpio.
Your likes and dislikes are strong and intense, never casual or superficial. You are known for your persistence and willful obsession. Once you have decided on a course of action, you are unstoppable. Your emotional actions tend to be extreme, although you try to keep them muted. You are not quick to anger, you do slow burns. And you tend to release your anger as sarcasm or irony. Beware of your tendency to hold grudges and to be vengeful. When you do fight, or release your internal tensions, you do so body and soul -- you become totally passionate and your outbursts are awesome to behold. Very true on all counts; I don't lose my temper easily but when I do - clear the planet!

Jupiter is in 23 Degrees Libra.
You are generally good at balancing opinions and judging issues, but you tend to be indecisive when it comes to making up your own mind. Damn straight there. You are objective and quite concerned with fair play and justice. But, when it comes to yourself, you are so aware that whatever you do might upset the apple cart that you often choose to compromise rather than do anything that might make you lonely or vulnerable. Relationships are very important to you -- you learn about yourself and grow through observing yourself interacting with others. How's that for contradictory? It's true, relationships are important to me. That's why I've avoided them for years. I'm too afraid of mucking them up. Your aesthetic tastes are refined, but expansive and expensive.

Saturn is in 15 Degrees Sagittarius.
Basically quite conservative, you respect traditional authority figures and are very thankful and supportive of the laws and institutions which govern your life. You learn and accept new ideas only after having very thoroughly examined them. Ideals and abstract concepts are important to you only if they can be used in some practical fashion. Not entirely true. I'm fascinated by new ideas, and have developed some abstract beliefs that aren't necessarily based on structural actualities. But those I hold closest are the ones that do produce practical results. You are so practical and so orderly that you have natural skills in planning, administrating and organizing.

Uranus is in 11 Degrees Leo.
You, and your peers as well, demand complete and total freedom of self-expression. You want to make your mark in the world according to your own lights and will brook no interference from traditional authority figures, especially if they attempt to mold or shape you in any way. You are honest and forthright, but a bit offbeat and eccentric. The lack of self-discipline may hinder you from reaching your goals as quickly as you would like. Offbeat and eccentric, yep. Lack of self-discipline depends on the area, though in general it's an accurate reflection of who I am.

Neptune is in 03 Degrees Scorpio.
You, and your entire generation, are extremely interested in anything deep and mysterious. You will explore and idealize the benefits that can accrue from the study of the occult, healing and psychology. You are willing to experiment with substances like drugs in order to push your understanding of your inner being to the extreme. NO drugs, no alcohol, no cigarettes - I've seen too much to go near the things. But I do consider other alternatives, metaphysical and so on.

Pluto is in 02 Degrees Virgo.
For your entire generation, this will be a time when profound changes in society's attitude toward work, duty and responsibility will be initiated. Radical changes in attitudes toward personal health and general nutrition will be promulgated and gain wide acceptance and practice. All together now. DUH!

N. Node is in 10 Degrees Scorpio.
You have a special aptitude for working by yourself, or with a like-minded group of dedicated individuals. Once you've committed yourself to a person or group or project, your loyalty and devotion are total until the group's goals have been realized. Not at all gregarious by nature, you're uncomfortable around strangers, greatly preferring to be in known and familiar situations. Others may regard you as shy or eccentric, but those who know you well are aware of the intense loyalty that you have to your friends. True. It is not easy for me to trust people but once I'm there, loyalty is my first, middle and last name. Even if I am angry and hurt, I won't do something intentionally hurtful, because that loyalty transcends my anger and my pain. However, if I have done absolutely everything that I can and know that a person has chosen something that's beyond redemption, I will walk away without a look back. I won't do something hurtful to them, but I do sever all ties.

Before - After

In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )