Radiogurl a la Carte

Monday, Sept. 18, 2006
Billy Idol with an E

Another day, another ton of money in the hole.

One of the downsides to this job is that my wardrobe had to be spiffed up. Not a lot, fortunately - God help me if I had to wear monkey suits, which cost a fortune - but enough that I had to crack open my wallet to buy a few things. Having a bra eaten by the dryer didn't help, though that's something that just happens now and again. Murphy, damn his law, invariably works overtime when you can afford it the least.

However, I am the queen of cheap, and as such tend to sniff out bargains wherever they hatch, either at outlet stores or thrift stores or - as a last resort - at Wally World. If I ever have money, I still won't pay retail except under duress. I'll just shop at a better class of outlet store and skip Wally World and its clones. I've been homeless about three times too many to feel free with the few pennies I manage to pinch together.

I found a skirt I liked and was feeling guilty because I paid just under $7.00 for it; ditto for a top that cost me on the order of $6.00. I start hyperventilating if I have to spend more than $10 on anything. For me, $20 for anything to wear is an outrageous price, though in reality I know the norm is nearer two or three times that for moderately good quality. If you want something that will last forever - or at least until it's out of style and back again - we're talking in the hundreds of dollars.

The only exception to that rule is shoes. Cheap shoes equal serious physical pain for me, on top of the fact that they wear out very, very quickly. My sneakers are Nike, my killer heels are relatively expensive, and I plan to spring for a pair of decent work-dress shoes shortly. (I wore my Nikes to work at the radio station. Therefore I never bought anything decent quality in the mid range between sexy and sloth, since they tended to languish in the bottom of the closet more than anything else.)

However, I don't see that happening any time soon, not with the other bills to cover.

I heard from one of our would-be web clients last night - and again today. He asked yesterday where he could send a check. Now he's saying he may just skip doing the site altogether. Oh well, Murphy and his law are old acquaintances now. Can't call 'em friends but at least I know their tricks.

Sorry I'm so glum tonight. I just feel like - again - the weight of the world is sitting squarely on my shoulders and damned if I won't screw it up again.

Before - After

In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )