Thursday, Oct. 12, 2006
This was a day of last straws.
No, I didn't quit, but now I am working my way toward a change.
1) I got my
allowance paycheck today and it was NOT what I was led to expect. Long story but suffice to say, if it weren't for some other projects and reimbursements, I'd have been SOL for my most basic payments. 2) Boss bitched and whined today not because I was doing a bad job or because I screwed up - no, he bitched because I did my job exactly as it was supposed to be done. In fact, it was done exactly as he TOLD me to do it, I might add.
I'm past the point of asking, "WTF?" and now just making plans to go elsewhere. I'd literally be better off getting a $7.50 an hour clerk's job somewhere. I've hit the point that I really expect a job to be operated by idiots any more, and I don't like being that way. I mean, I expect work, don't get me wrong. But I don't expect to do something right, get quantifiable good results, then get my ass chewed about it. And I don't like going in looking for trouble. You know the old saying (much bastardized in my version, sorry.) If you look for trouble, you're pretty much guaranteed to find it.
I think there's something in the air. This past month or two has been all about loss and forced change, for several people I know. I know the changes are necessary but holy crap... Do they always have to be so painful in the transition?
This doesn't change my need to retire, but it is a pretty safe bet that ain't happening any time soon. If I leave this job, for whatever reason, it just means I have to go hunting for something else, because the basics are still the same.
Except less money coming in for the moment.
At least MC conceded he's going to go ahead and call his ex's daughter tomorrow morning. I know it's a hard call for him to make, but I think he finally resolved to stand up and do something to get things done. I've really done all that I can for now and he knows it.
He also told me (and I nearly fainted in surprise) that if his ex decides to give him grief, he can and will turn the tables on her, throwing it all back on her.
Now, if you knew MC - who, though I love him dearly, makes milquetoast look bold - you'd understand why I nearly fell over at that. Of course, talk is cheap (except in cellular minutes) so we'll see how things REALLY go in the very near future.
Before - After
In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )