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Sunday, Nov. 19, 2006
Card In Null Rule

Pictures from WildRosie's play are posted here, for anyone who wants to see. Just be aware it's a flash presentation because I was too lazy to format a regular html page.

I should be sleeping. I should be watching every penny. Instead, I am awake and I spent a buttload of money we don't have to set up a second hosting service today so pain-in-the-ass client can have a service for which we didn't originally contract, but I knew back when that he wanted to do. My credit card is going to bite my butt over this. It was an expense I didn't want to incur right now, but there was just no way around it.

The card is now maxed out, though, so it can't come to the rescue again...

Actually we will probably have to move the other radio station over to the new service sooner or later, too, because our old service apparently doesn't support streaming. Not that I know for sure, because my repetitive questions got exactly zero response from their *ahem* "support" desk.

Kind of like other issues they pretended to address but never actually resolved.

Tonight I finally posted on their support forum and my post got marked spam and frozen until they approve it.

Guess who's leaving their service entirely asap?

Anyway...

Going tomorrow to give my notice at work, or else just walk out. I haven't decided which just yet. I am leaning heavily toward the latter, because if I stay for two more weeks, it be that much worse. Just the thought of going back to work there leaves me ill. I am thinking if nothing else, I'll hit the retailers and do that for a few weeks to fill in the gap, or flip burgers, or whatever. I will definitely apply at the temp agency but from past experience, it can take 2-3 weeks to get through their preliminary processes and of course another 2-3 weeks to get a paycheck, provided you go to work right away.

I know MC wants to stay at this end of the state. I'm more or less okay if I get the job I applied for Friday. That's a pretty decent area. But I don't want to stay here for much longer. I feel like we're an imposition on WildRosie, for one thing. For another, it's a royal pain to live indefinitely out of boxes. For another, I really don't like living quite this far out of town. I guess it all boils down to wanting our own place. While you appreciate any place to stay, it's never the same as your own.

That sounds terrifically whiny, doesn't it?

If it weren't for MC, I'd already have packed it out and lived in the truck. I wouldn't even blink. But with two of us to think of (three if you count the dog,) that's out of the question.

This is really getting old. Hell, I'm getting too old to live a like a nomad. I never liked it and I am not liking it any more as I get older. Though even nomads have their tents, don't they?

Semi-religious aside - back when my mom was still alive and constantly reminding me of how I never could or would measure up to God's (her) standards, she made the comment that Jesus said we should be content if we have food and clothes. Her implication was that I had no right to ask or expect to have a home of any kind, and that I should be infernally eternally grateful without it.

What she ignored was that in the world of Jesus, the Jews already had a homeland, and each family had been allotted a parcel. Jesus may not have had a pillow for his head when traveling, but as both a carpenter and a Jew, he had the capacity to build and own a home, whether or not he availed himself of it.

That's one of the footnotes to The Da Vinci Code that was absolutely correct, despite the book's fictional origins. The rest didn't impress me terribly one way or another, but that did, probably because of the life I've lived.

I know that some of my readers have strong religious convictions, others are agnostic, and some, like me, are in sort of a limbo. I believe in God, but am not convinced that organized religion got it right. I'm more inclined to think that God stares down at the atrocities committed in His/Her name and wants to incinerate the whole planet. Which is pretty much what the Bible says, too, when you get down to it.

But I digress. I didn't want to go down the road of religion tonight. There are plenty of other powderkegs to ignite.

Before - After

In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )