Wednesday, Dec. 13, 2006
Hold the Sugar
The past couple of days have been a whirlwind of phone calls back and forth between me and 00, but the good news is that my grandson WILL get to spend Christmas with us. I haven't seen him in three years and MC has never seen him, for one thing; for another, we're discovering that 00's ex is just beginning to reap some of what he's sowed.
It turns out that Grandson has come home from school crying every day for the past week, wanting his mom. So it's not all peaches and cream for the SOB who literally stole the child. There WILL come a point at which the boy gets to choose who he lives with, and at that point I think his daddy will get the fuzzy end of the lollipop, and in a big way - and that doesn't count what will happen to said daddy if and when 00 hauls his crummy ass into court to challenge custody while Grandson is still young.
Anyway, we're currently looking at least at seeing our grandson and more than likely our granddaughter, too, this Christmas.
If I can get the materials in time, there will be gifts for the female half of the family. I'm waiting primarily on one of several packages, one containing key ingredients without which I can't make ANY of the females' gifts. Hopefully it'll come in no later than the end of the week. If not, it's going to really be pushing it to get everything done and I might have to break down and buy some extra materials locally, whether I can afford them or not. (I might do that anyway and just have the others on hand as needed.)
I did get a message from one of my eBay sellers telling me their item was shipped today - that one also critical, though it will only affect one gift, so I've got a bit more leeway in terms of time.
Poor Rosietoes - if you read her diary, kindly stop by and leave her a nice note. Today is her birthday and after she wrote her entry, she got hit with not one but three disasters. Well, one's not so much disaster as ongoing issue that's reached the intolerable stage. MC and I do all we can, and Zeb does all he can, but we are all limited and can't make up for the two renters who have created a heck of a lot more grief than the money is worth.
I should probably be panicked at the prospect of paying bills about now. I still don't have a job. If I could handle being on my feet all day I'd go to work for one of the retailers in town. Unfortunately there are some things my health simply makes impossible and that's one of them. Ditto laborer stuff. I've done it before, several years ago. Work doesn't scare me, but I'm no longer physically fit enough to do heavy labor.
It's doubly frustrating because lately the knee's acting up so much that even a trip to the grocery store is a real challenge. If I wear a knee brace it's survivable for a bit longer. Without the knee brace, I'm in pain for two or three days straight.
All of which simply reinforces that I've got to lose the weight and keep it off. That alone would resolve a whole lot of the health-related issues.
By the way, the problem with the knee is arthritis, so it's not going to get better as I get older, though hopefully by losing weight I will slow its progress.
As to the weight issue, I'm getting a lot of medical and lay advice that agrees - eat what you want, but stop eating before you're full, just when you're no longer hungry. And eat when you are hungry; not before, and don't wait until you're positively famished to eat, because that's a guarantee you'll overeat.
So far, so good. I've done that for a few days now and can tell a difference in the way my clothes fit. I'm not starving nor feeling remotely deprived, either.
I'm also paying attention to how I feel after I eat, including how I feel after eating certain foods. I've come to realize I've got another food allergy and I haven't pinned down what it is, but it's up there with the oranges and pineapple. Something causes the inside of my mouth and throat to break out. As part of this process I'm writing down what it is that I'm eating, which will hopefully help me to pin down the culprit in short order.
Doing this has also helped me cut back on sugar and garbage food, which is the only way to deal with the hypoglycemia, anyway. Since I'm required to write down what I feel like after I've eaten anything, I've documented specifically how icky I feel after downing anything sugary. If I don't overdo it - sticking to a small dessert only after a regular meal that's low or absent starches - I am okay. If I eat more than a few bites of anything heavy in sugar, though, or eat something sugary without preceding that with real food, I'm shaky and queasy for hours afterward.
All of this explains why I did as well as I did on Atkins. My body doesn't like carbs. While I am hypoglycemic rather than diabetic, the diet requirements are pretty much the same. Cut out sugar, cut back on or eliminate caffeine, limit starches.
To answer Boxx, no, we haven't set a new wedding date. Until we know for certain what date MC's divorce goes final, we're not going to set another date, knowing we might have to move it again. In fact, I'm inclined to wait until we've got the final decree signed and in hand before we set another date, all things considered.
I've gotten most, if not all, of my Christmas Card addresses that I've asked for this year. I think I still need to ask two or three more people but today's been one of those, "Please, somebody, shoot me and put me out of my misery," days. I haven't felt well all day, kind of an achy icky overall dragging-my-ass feeling. Hopefully that's not the harbinger of a repeat of last year's never-ending cold.
Okay. Just dug into my goodie box and found some of the things I need to start working on things. I will obviously not be able to finish all I want to do, but this is a start. I hope to put some of the things on eBay, but need to do so asap in order to get things out in time for Christmas.
Before I forget - again - this was lifted from Art, who lifted it from somebody else. But I thought it was a goodie, anywho.
- Colored lights or white lights?
- Real tree or fake tree?
- What is your least favorite thing about the holidays?
- That as time goes on, you get fewer and fewer actual holidays... More and more places are actually open on Christmas Day, for example.
- What is the one thing that you would like to see under the tree this year?
- Hmmm... I already got my best Christmas gifts ever this year (MC and the new computer, in that order) so other than that, probably a pair of bedroom slippers, because my feet are ALWAYS cold.
- What is your favorite thing to do/build in the snow?
- I'm with Art - I used to love sledding when I was a kid.
- What is your favorite holiday drink?
- Hot chocolate - but oddly enough, I only like it around the holidays.
- What is your favorite holiday smell?
- That's hard to say. I love the smell of the tree, but also the smell of a turkey cooking.
- Who is your favorite reindeer?
- I don't have a favorite reindeer. I don't own any reindeer.
- What is your Christmas Eve ritual?
- I don't have a Christmas Eve ritual - though if I am not mistaken, that will change with MC in my life.
- Are you a Friday after Thanksgiving shopper?
- What is your favorite holiday food?
- I absolutely adore divinity, but lost my recipe so buy it when it comes out at Christmas time
- How did you find out that Santa wasn't real?
- I always knew. My mom wouldn't let us believe in Santa because she said it was a lie and she didn't want to lie to her kids.
- Who do you want to be under the mistletoe with?
- Have you bought all your presents yet?
- No, though I've gotten a lot of them.
- Do you spend Christmas with a lot of family?
- This year, I certainly hope so! I talked to 00 today and the plan is tentatively that I'll even get to see my grandson!
- Do you still make snowmen and snow angels?
- No - that requires snow...
- Do you still have snow ball fights?
- What's your favorite Christmas movie?
- I'm not sure. I like Holiday Inn (I'm a Danny Kaye fan)
- What do you plan to do for New Year's Eve?
- That will basically be the one-year anniversary from when MC came into my life, so hopefully we'll spend the night doing something together.
- What's the weirdest thing you've ever got for Christmas?
- Not sure it qualifies as "weird" but one year - the year I was eight - I got a pocket notebook and a pencil for Christmas. That was all I got for Christmas that year. Needless to say, we didn't have a lot of money those days.
- What's the most expensive thing you've gotten for Christmas?
- One year my ex (the kids' dad) had a piano delivered for Christmas, topped with a humongous red bow. He put my name on the paperwork so I had to make the payments on it, but hey - it was one fantastic Christmas present while it lasted. It ultimately got repossessed because I got pregnant and had a difficult pregnancy, couldn't work and therefore couldn't make the payments.
- How early do you wake up on Christmas morning?
- I haven't got a clue - normally around 8-ish, I think.
- What do you usually get in your stocking?
- I gotta go with Art's answer here - FEET! i don't recall the last time I had a Christmas stocking.
With that in mind, I'm outta here for tonight. Adios!
Before - After
In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )