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Monday, Feb. 12, 2007
A Monday of Note

Good grief. I've been trying to add this entry for about an hour now.

My computer at work is having a conniption fit. Or more accurately, I think the server at work is having a conniption fit, which is even less nice, given that if it goes belly-up it ain't gonna be pretty dealing with our boss. And given that we've got a pretty major database corruption going on, I'm glad I don't have to work the next couple of days.

The person who is supposed to do maintenance, in a word, DOESN'T. I can't; I don't have an administrator password here. I do what I can, running antivirus and running anti-spyware when I'm here, but I can't do the serious maintenance, things like rebooting, scandisk, defrag, etc. I told the manager again tonight that this stuff should be done at LEAST once a day. If they don't want the average employee performing the maintenance, they need to spring for some set-it-and-forget-it software that works in the background. For example, it costs $50 for a pro version of Disk Keeper. Compare that to the cost of lost business and business records when your entire computer system undergoes a catastrophic collapse.

Anyway...

My interview today was pretty meh. I think I did well enough and might be called back for their second round of interviews. However, since it entails regular lifting of 50lb boxes, methinks it isn't the job for me, anyway. I'm not unwilling to do hard work, but my body has other ideas about it, I'm afraid. My main concern is that I have zero grip with my left hand - the one legitimate handicap from the loss of a couple of fingers and serious damage to the others.

On the flipside of that, I did hear back about the book. We're probably looking at an advance of at least $5000 or so, and potentially up to $20,000. That would be a godsend on soooooo many levels.

We have to get a better camera, however. MC was still kind of grousing at the prospect until I spelled it out to him today, immediately after getting the latest update. Then he was the one urging me to get the $1000 setup. I had to gently bring him back to reality, in which I currently make next to nothing. Thousand dollar cameras aren't a part of that picture, thank you very much.

If and when we get the advance, that's all well and good. If it's a tool we need for the job, the cost should be a deductible expense. I still choke at the thought of spending that much money for a camera, but I also had no clue that this kind of book could generate that kind of money. If this is an advance, I can't help wondering what kind of royalties would follow.

So help me... to think about it, money like this coming back for months or even years after initial publication...

Then again, this is merely the first of a series, and through a regular publishing house. I will only be credited with the photography on the first edition, but in those going forward, I'll be doing some of the writing, too.

I don't expect to approach the level of J.K. Rowling or anything, but it would be nice to be able to have our own house someday. If MC is working again and I can make a halfway decent go at this, we might really be able to do it. Something like that is almost impossible for me to fathom. I'd just be thrilled if I could pay off my car early and not have to worry about a car payment for a while.

I felt like crying tonight. On freecycle, someone listed an upright piano up for giveaway, said they're moving and don't want to take it with them. If I only had a place.

Before - After

In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )