Radiogurl a la Carte

2004-03-24
Don't Want No Pipe Dreams

It's again a god-awful hour of the night and I'm just now getting around to dinner. Dangerspouse has been awake an hour or two, but most sane people are in bed. And in this capacity, sanity is not overrated!

More or less moved in. 00's current boyfriend moved in, too, as it turns out. I am at best ambivalent at the prospect. In all fairness, I couldn't have done this move without his help, and he does clean and cook. But he's also currently unemployed, has no car, and I found his pipe tonight while putting things away. (Supposedly he's looking for work - that also wasn't the deal. He was supposed to HAVE work and stay here until the kids could get their own place.)

I don't mean the kind of tobacco that Grandpa used to smoke, either, unless you had one very far-out grandfather.

Reality being what it is, I set my foot down on that particular issue before anybody moved in with me. I went through the whole gamut with late hubby several years before he was 'late.' We're talking cigarettes (I don't smoke, and loath tobacco in any form), alcohol, marijuana, methamphetamines, cocaine, heroin, peyote - if it was illegal and/or dangerous and/or stupid, ex did it, and did it to excess. And yeah, he didn't stick to only the drugs in terms of illegal activities.

I survived that experience to end up raising four children alone and swore I'd raise holy hell if anyone brought any kind of drugs into my home. And absolutely NOBODY smokes inside my walls or they'll get a tobacco suppository while it's still lit.

This kid was warned that when it comes to drugs of any kind I have zero tolerance. In this community, an ounce of pot will practically get you hanged. Add to that the fact of what I do for a living, and the LAST thing I want or need is some idiot getting high while under my roof.

Supposedly the pipe was old and just happened to meander up here with other belongings. I made it excruciatingly clear that it had better meander out of here in a hurry and never come back again (along with any incidental contents). This is an iffy proposition at best and the kids know I've got an ace in the hole to get them out if push comes to shove. And if they push me, I'll be shoving back.

Before - After

In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )