Saturday, Jul. 10, 2004
This is my second entry of the night. First one actually had a little bit to say, primarily to complain about this and that. Now I'm finally home from work, I got to read through a lot of the backlog of friends' diaries, and I'm feeling just slap-happy enough to do something off-the-wall and stupid. I'm uploading a sound file of music. And don't worry, there's absolutely no chance of a recording studio coming after anyone and suing you for bootlegging their overpriced CDs. This was just a friend and I goofing off with my home computer's audio programs:
Okay, so it's maybe a little ambitious to call it music. My friend has a gorgeous voice, anyway. (She's the one singing lead, I am singing both backup voices - amazing what you can do with a multi-track recorder and a bottle of wine to inhibit common sense, lol.)
This same lady just blew me away last night. It didn't sink in until today the full implications of what she offered. She and hubby-to-be live on the east coast of Canada and bought a house a few months back, are apparently deliriously happy together, and I am thrilled for them. This friend and I go back a while and I watched her go through hell before getting to her current situation. Very few people know the extent and I have to respect her privacy here, but suffice to say that she was long overdue for some joy in her life.
She and her significant other just bought ANOTHER house, a huge old Victorian on a large lot, one they plan to restore - and volunteered that they'd like for me to move into it. She and my friend from Quebec promised to put their heads together to 'kidnap' me and bring me to Canada. If, according to her, I wasn't so stubborn.
If I thought I could get work there, I'd be on my way tomorrow. If I were writing professionally (as novels or comparable, since I technically do write for a living now), I'd go in a heartbeat, anyway. Though I suspect I'd spend so much time at the neighbors' home, just talking, that I wouldn't accomplish much else for a good six months.
Every now and then I am reminded that I am extremely blessed. I have met some absolutely extraordinary, generous, warm people over the Internet, and become fast friends. They keep me more or less sane, keep me from the suicidal tendencies that nearly destroyed me less than five years ago, and more times than I can count, have brought tears to my eyes with their respective kindnesses.
The world has a lot of negatives in it today - I'll be the first to say so. But from time to time, we also get a glimpse of the reasons we continue to struggle against all odds - because of people who care.
Before - After
In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )