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Tuesday, Jun. 08, 2004
Tapestry

I should really be asleep - and will be shortly. Have to facilitate a meeting first thing in the morning. It was supposed to have been handled by the executive director of the Chamber of Commerce but someone crossed wires and scheduled her for two events. How they chose me to replace her I'll never know, but I'm honored.

I think.

Maybe Dangerspouse knows - is it typical for the news director at a media outlet to be recognized/invited to this kind of things? I'll grant you, I've gone out of my way to get involved in the community, for any number of reasons - but this is an entirely new direction for me.

It's prestigious for the station and fortunately Boss recognizes the fact. He's never given me grief about going to any 'outside' meetings like this. In the long run it is building a network of connections, which is 99.99% of news. If you don't know who to ask, you get nada when it comes to crucial stories.

By the same token, I'm growing pretty tired. In this case, I don't know if I was selected because I was the only one available, because I was the most articulate one available, or because I have a reputation for being reasonably level-headed.

There's another factor, too. Every time I think of saying no, I stop to consider how many women would never have this opportunity, how many have been locked out of what is still primarily a man's world. In broadcasting, while women are making inroads, it's still by far a man's profession, especially for management. I was one of the two first woman broadcasters in this community, only seventeen years ago. We're talking the late 1980's, not the stone age.

So despite the fact that I know I'm being overworked and underpaid, I'm still determined to keep going, to take on the extra projects when they're posed to me. And there will come a time when I'm paid a decent wage, because I'm pissed enough to insist on it. I just know it won't be at this station.

Considering it's now nearly 2:30 AM and I've got to be up an hour earlier than normal in the morning, I suppose I should sign off, and I will. But I'll close with a quote that, while it's from one of my fictional stories, is something that really describes my convictions.

In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.

Before - After

In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )