Radiogurl a la Carte

Saturday, Jul. 24, 2004

I am awake for a couple of hours or so. Dropped into bed last night about 6:45PM, just dead-on-my-feet exhausted and glad for the rest. Woke up before 4am, still yawning but distinctly better. Given that I will have to get up this early during the upcoming week, I should probably stay up, but think I'm going to go back to sleep for an hour or two, just the same.

I know a couple of people commented that I should've left my rant mode up, and maybe I should have. But I'd already allowed myself the one big rant for the week and wanted to break myself out of that mode. Yes, I have plenty to be depressed about - but I also have some reasons to be positive, not the least of which are some extraordinary friends, many of whom I've met online.

That doesn't mean things here have changed substantially. I know I still need to get the heck out of this place, preferably soon. The walls are closing in and I know there's nothing for me here now. I've got to take care of some necessities - primarily a car - then pack it in and head across the planet. To that end, I'm putting back every penny I can, and hoping for the best. The car scenario has its advantages and disadvantages. If I can dredge up half down, I should be able to pay the thing off in short order. I'll ask about terms for a one-year loan to expedite things. I won't be able to buy new, obviously, but should hopefully be able to at least get a decent used vehicle. I looked at one that's a 2000 model - I wouldn't panic at the thought of driving across the country in one that recent.

My next thought is to consider the space factor. If I don't buy furniture, then I don't have to rent a truck to move. A decent-sized car will allow me to carry my clothes, computer, TV, and what little else I need to get me to the other side of the world. I mean, if I have to buy furniture anyway, might as well save travel costs and buy it there.

All of this is predicated on whether I have work waiting for me there, too, naturally. The other alternative - not precisely my first choice but sadly within the realm of possibility - is if Boss doesn't recover from surgery, in which case all other plans get thrown out the window and I get to start over from scratch. In that event, I am not sure how the details will work, since I'll already be without a job and hunting, might as well hunt where I want to be.

For right now, everything is 100% pure speculation. I figure the only thing I can do is to keep plugging along and do my best to save some money, and take it from there. Wish me luck!

Oh, and just for fun, a rather unique look at the two candidates for President of the United States: JibJab. Funny stuff and vastly more creative and intelligent than half the stuff out there passing for political advertising.

I am hoping to get my logo re-drawn this weekend and finish up three others I need to do. One of them will be simple, as it's just a victorian house with a picket fence - the product line's name will be spelled out with the pickets. Another shouldn't be too tough - I'm thinking ballet shoes and a single rose, very elegant and understated. The fourth one will be more challenging. I know what was asked for but it could go a couple of different directions. The idea is, best as I can describe it, 'elegant library' style. Quill and ink and open book, a candle glow over everything, plus I was asked specifically to draw another woman in the picture. I am not quite sure how it will work together, though I do have some ideas.

I've learned, though, that for anything that will be in print, it's definitely preferable to do the coloring in my graphics program UNLESS trying for an antique patina - then it's better to do actual painting. The exception is anything where I want a watercolor look. Paint programs don't do that well imho, gotta do the real deal there. But for me, watercolor is kind of kids' stuff - I was forced to work in that medium in school. I always preferred oils for the rich colors and textures. And while they're not cheap, the result is worth it. An oil painting is just more 'alive' to me than any other option. The colors blend better, have more depth, and you can achieve much more subtlety with oils than any other medium, even acrylics. Acrylics dry in minutes, whereas oils are still workable for days, even in this area of near-zero humidity.

Before - After

In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )