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Tuesday, Mar. 15, 2005
Injustice System And Nighttime Loopies

It's 10:30pm and I'm starting an entry, the earliest I've begun my entry in who knows how long!

Things are a bit calmer this week overall, at least so far. I have to call Sis tomorrow to be sure she's okay. Since I haven't heard anything to the contrary I am assuming that she is. Work's been a blur, with most of the week effectively obscured by an ongoing, multi-day headache (stress related, I'm sure.) At least it's low-grade enough that I am not rendered non-functional.

00's ex filed for sole custody of my grandson. In his papers he claims he has had the baby ever since his birth, among other whoppers. I assume that the kid grew up in camouflage diapers, given that the SOB was overseas when said baby was born. 00 doesn't have the $120 to pay to file a legal challenge and I don't have it to give her, so I guess the bastard gets away scott-free. She has just a few more days to file a response. After all of the other crises in the past couple of weeks, I'm broke beyond broke. If she'd let me know BEFORE everything else happened, I might have been able to pull a rabbit out of my hat. Now, I don't even have the hat left. The American justice system at work. As usual, the one with the money gets away with murder and the victim gets beaten up a second time by the system that was supposed to protect.

Sorry, I'm in a royally bitchy mood tonight. It wasn't the best day but also wasn't the worst. I'm just tired of being responsible for the whole damned world. Boss called about 8 times tonight - I was so tempted to take the phone off the hook and just walk away. Of course I didn't because if the studios come crashing down, I'm the one who has to put Humpty Dumpty back together again.

Boss is back to semi-normal, or as normal as possible, all things considered. He's eating and drinking within relatively normal parameters. He's still not well, and is making daily trips to Mayo. Only difference is that now he's driving himself. K has been helping a little at the studios but he's only here for a couple of weeks or so. Boss told me he'd been asking K to come out for several months. K told me Boss told him NOT to come out.

Just another example of how convoluted things are. I don't know if Boss lied outright or has just dropped out of sight of reality, and neither does K. I am to the point that I think Boss intentionally has the bad spells to keep me from walking out and leaving him stranded. I don't literally thing that he would do that in any conscious way; but I really DO wonder if it's something subconscious.

That sounds pretty farfetched, I guess, but I'm so exhausted right now I hardly even care. I think I should probably call it a night, because I can't even tell tonight whether my post is remotely coherent.

Before - After

In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )