Radiogurl a la Carte

Friday, Aug. 19, 2005
Long Distance Sucketh

I actually accomplished a few things this morning already. Good thing; I only have until 1:30 to have everything done and set to go for the weekend. I kept us running this morning, got my wx recorded and got the weekend scheduling completed, even with the live interview of 2005 Miss Rodeo Arizona. Normally live interviews outside my regular morning hours put me way behind schedule, but this time around I knew I had people coming in all week and that I'd need to share our production facilities, so I finished up the peripheral stuff as early in the mornings as possible.

I have an appointment to get a haircut later today, figured Fridays are the one day I can usually count on being out of here on time. Granted, it didn't work out that way last Friday, but if we get hit by lightning again today I'm not going to be able to do jack to get us back on the air, anyway, because we're already using back-up equipment. If it fries we're out of luck until Monday.

This has been one hellaciously long week and I am looking forward to the weekend. I don't think I'm going to attempt the rodeo unless 00 or T come up here for the weekend. I would want to go to a nighttime show, anyway, and really don't want to do that by myself. It's a family-friendly thing, yeah, but there are almost always a few drunken cowboys around, too.

Now that I finally found the library, I think I am going to go there tomorrow. I've been buying books lately rather than just checking them out; I think I'd like to reverse that trend. I want to read the new Stephen R Donaldson effort, for one thing - and I think it's about $27 to buy. I don't mind too much buying books, feel like it's a justifiable expense. Still, I cringe at the thought of shelling out thirty bucks for something I'll read and put on a shelf, maybe not read again for years - if at all. (Though the Donaldson book will probably be re-read sooner than that.)

I'm more or less killing time at the moment, have about half an hour before I leave for lunch. I actually (FINALLY) bought groceries last night and did my laundry, which means this weekend, in theory, I'm free as a bird. I have some minimal cleaning to do at the house, but that won't take long. I might go pick up my friend LR and bring her here, if she doesn't have her grandsons this weekend. Seems like our schedules never work out in that department. Kind of like T's and my schedule lately. Nothing's timing out anywhere.

I am still crazy about T but beginning to wonder if there is actually room in his life for me. No, I am by no means writing him off and we haven't had a disagreement, nothing like that. It's just discouraging. We live about two hours apart by car, but our work and family demands cooperatively negate weekends together, and of course during the week it's an automatic no-go most of the time. And if I'm honest, my own schedule isn't much better, if any. I am on call 24/7 here too, and while it's not comparable to my previous job, there are occasions (too many in fact) when I have to work outside the Monday-Friday daily grind.

How do couples survive who have bi-coastal relationships? That would drive me out of my mind. Or maybe it would actually be simpler. Then you KNOW that you can't just jump into the car for a couple of hours to spend time together. You have no choice but to plan in advance. With T and me we really can't plan far in advance because we have schedules that exemplify the word "unpredictable." Our "official" work hours don't necessarily reflect the reality of when we're working. I don't have a sub who can fill in for me and I don't think T does, either.

The upside is that there's no argument about it when we have to put personal things on hold, frustration notwithstanding. I don't get the third-degree for having to work late or getting called in outside my normal hours and neither does T. My former sister-in-law was beaten for arriving home from work three minutes late one day and I used to deal with the same sort of grief. I definitely appreciate the little details about T, including his patience. Heck, he's a lot more patient than I am!

Well I think it's time to wrap this up and post. I have about fifteen minutes until I can get out of here for lunch and believe me, today I'm going.

Before - After

In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )