Sunday, Sept. 04, 2005
Okay, y'all missed a crucial point yesterday. If I could call T, there wouldn't be a problem. It isn't about pride - it's an inability to reach him. I left a message. He has my phone number, email and Instant Messenger info. He knows where I stand, that I would really like more consistent contact. I am not going to harass him over the issue.
The choice is his. If he can't or won't get ahold of me, I have to accept the fact and move on. What I think or feel about the issue is irrelevant. That sounds cold and angry. It's not: it's a simple fact I learned years and years ago. If one person wants out of a relationship, the other half has no say in the matter. The decision is made and the only thing left is to cope with it.
I got an instant message from Youngest Daughter overnight, asking me if I was still going to take 00's dog in. I don't know whether or not I'm willing to do that any more. It was a big deal for me to offer in the first place. I live in a very tiny place and live alone. I am on call for work 24/7, and while I don't generally have the hellacious hours here that I did at the last place I worked, there are times when I work late. Those aren't the best conditions for keeping a dog alone in the house, particularly a dog the size of a small horse.
Add that to the garbage I took from 00 when I tried to help her before, and I'm pretty gun-shy about agreeing to help her again, especially this soon. It's kind of a moot point, anyway. I don't have the gas to drive to the Valley to pick up said dog, and 00 has no vehicle. (I assume she lives in the Valley now.)
Today is my "get-everything-done" day. Laundry, housework, etc. My dishes are done and I just started the laundry. I have all of my doors and windows thrown open while it's still nice out. It's 70 degrees Fahrenheit at the moment, should be in the mid 80's before the day's out. Partly cloudy, nice. I figured I'll air the place out while it's nice. Might even go borrow a carpet shampooer today or tomorrow and clean it up right.
Today is also potentially a photo-op. It's nice out, a little hazy but that isn't necessarily a bad thing. I am hesitant to do too much driving - gotta leave enough gas to be able to get back and forth to work! I think, though, that I should be able to get some shots from here in town without making too much of a dent.
Yesterday's drive I stopped at a little Chinese buffet for lunch/dinner. Keeping to tradition, my fortune is being posted here:
Sounds good on paper but open to a heck of a lot of interpretations!
This quiz didn't come to me from Diaryland - my friend Angela sent it to me. I didn't make a special entry for it - decided instead to just edit it into this one.
Moon baby. You are a spiritual and intuitive person. You make decisions on instincts alone. You watch out for signs and symbols. Dreams give you sight into the future and places unknown. You believe that our life can be determined by our karmas and by fate. Dream catchers are your favorite toys. You are good at feeling people out and seeing into them and their true intentions. Lies are hard to pass through you. You can get lost in all the symbolism and horoscope readings. You speak to the wind and commune with nature. The only bad side is that technology is growing so rapidly you get behind in the shuffle and others may find you kooky my the way you think. You know better than to let them get you down. You know better than to do a lot of things.
Which White Angel are You? (pics included)
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Before - After
In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )