Thursday, Nov. 09, 2006
After the Fall
Sometimes the universe comes through in a pinch.
Auto repairs this morning totaled my bank account (or at least a good chunk of it) and in fact, I was practically hyperventilating at the fact that it was going to eat up my ability to pay other obligations.
Then (the angels must have been snickering behind my back) more money showed up today from a source I didn't anticipate.
This is not, by the way, the first time something comparable has happened.
Anywho, I still hate the job; but at least I'm a lot less depressed now that I know that I'm not in imminent danger of having my car repossessed (no, I wasn't past due on the payment, but given my history, it's a recurring nightmare) or the power turned off (ditto) or any number of other lovely disasters occurring.
MC and I went out to dinner tonight (his idea) and he reminded me that things really are turning around, and that there really is a light at the end of the tunnel. I can see it, but with so many years of deprivation ingrained into me, it's really hard for me to shift my way of thinking. Fortunately MC is good at coaxing me back from the precipice. The man has the patience of Job.
It's late and I'm exhausted, but once more I'm amazed that my prayers were answered when I was too far gone to voice them or even formulate the thought.
Before - After
In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )