Sunday, Feb. 04, 2007
I'm bored and tired and icky. Well, I feel icky anyway, since my dinner consisted of a Circle K burrito and a chocolate bar.
Yes, I know better. I did it anyway, and I am now paying the price.
Do you know how much I hate knowing I have to avoid chocolate? (The same holds true for anything with too many carbs.) I have actually lost a size in the past couple of months, in part because every now and then I eat something sweet - and am promptly reminded by my body of why I really shouldn't eat it. I am not intentionally doing Atkins these days, but I end up eating much as though I were, because anything carb-heavy makes me physically ill.
For what it's worth, I'm hypoglycemic, so I know I have to cut out the sugar and crap for the sake of my health. And unfortunately it's growing progressively harder to find low-carb foods nowadays. When I did Atkins a few years ago I had no problem - low-carb was everywhere. Now I will probably have to order online to get brand name stuff, or simply eliminate all but proteins and veggies from my diet. I'd be in trouble as a vegan, lemme tell you.
I emailed a small group of friends today and asked them for help on an article I'm composing. So far I've only gotten two responses (one of which was that she'd get back to me,) but I'm very happy with the first real response I did get to my oh-so-personal questions. I hope to gather enough pertinent information to build a larger article, so I can shop it out to a magazine.
For what it's worth, a colleague asked me specifically to write an article on this subject. As soon as she said it, I knew I had to do it. As soon as it's done and posted in short form online, I'll put a link up here. If it gets picked up by a magazine in its longer form, I'll let you know that, too.
It's really kind of weird to realize I'm making a little money from writing these days. Of course that was really what paid my way in radio, truth be told. That's why I did well in news. I can write and good reading skills. I have a good voice, too, but I don't have the personality it takes to make a career as a broadcast entertainer. I can hold my own in a room full of nut cases, and I am indeed just psycho enough to pull it off - but you have to both be psycho AND extremely outgoing to really do it well, and it's the "outgoing" part that loses me. I have too much affinity for peace and quiet, thank you very much.
Mother Nature finally smiled on us the past couple of days again. I'm glad, because MC and I have been trying to get over to Gleeson for a photo session, in connection with the book deal. We planned on going Tuesday when I was already in Bisbee. Unfortunately, the weather Tuesday was not cooperating. It was spitting rain, then snow, then rain and snow. Those things aren't nice to people, much less digital cameras.
I'm still plugging along toward a digital camera with my money from AC. I need to write something for pay every day, but some days I can barely drag my sorry butt out of bed, and forget about writing. I'm a little more than a third of the way to the camera I'd like to buy, which is an upgrade from what I originally planned. This is the one I want:
As you can see, it isn't all that special to look at, but it IS 1) a Canon, a brand I trust and 2) 10MP. Yup, that's a "1" and a "0" together, for that price. (The image links back to the details about it.)
I'd obviously love to get one of those $1000 camera linked from the left of the page, but that ain't happening at the moment. Still, this version should be much stronger than MC's older 3MP Olympus, which washes out all the colors for some reason. We weren't going to spend the money on a camera, all things considered - but given that it'll be used to make money, it is a justifiable expense.
I got an email from MC and we got an offer for a place to stay in Tucson. Obviously we'll talk it over when I get home tonight, but being there would automatically mean more opportunities for me to find something that pays better. The living arrangements would be a tradeoff - obviously we'd have heat, but it would be crowded and zero privacy, plus some other considerations that concern me. It's a lot to think about...
We shall see.
Before - After
In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )