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Tuesday, Oct. 05, 2004
Boomerang Effect

This is my fourth attempt today to add an entry to this diary! Every time I've started, something interrupted me and I had to close the window to do something else. It's been that kind of day, all day long.

There was nothing especially extreme happening today, mind you. Life simply kept throwing minor curve balls my way, bits and pieces of work and other things that interrupted my quality diary time.

I feel physically like I've run a marathon. My muscles ache from exertion that never happened. I'm exhausted far more than the day really warrants. I was in the studios all day and only worked about 10-1/2 hours, for heaven's sake. I didn't have to crawl around trying to trace down a short in a wire, or haul equipment from Point A to Point B. I mainly wrote news, and tore through our regular monthly notary stack. (I'm a notary public. A significant portion of our billing has to be notarized, with the studio owner swearing that we really played commercial XYZ at time ABC. It isn't like a newspaper where you can provide a copy of the paper and point out that the sponsor's ad is there.)

I did the maintenance tonight after hours - sans Tall Guy this week. No point in having him there for the aesthetics if he doesn't want to be there, not when it really does nothing to expedite the process. 00 and I have only been outdone by computers a couple of times, and only then because Boss refused to let us handle the regular maintenance like we were supposed to do. Now that we've got a set scheduile, everything is working like clockwork. I didn't actually need him so saw no point in calling him.

Besides which, since Tall Guy's not going to be around much longer, it's just as well to get back into the routine of handling things alone again. I'm going to teach boss how to do the two steps I can't perform from home. The rest can be handled remotely, using the VPN connections.

This is going to be a pretty short entry, because I am going to bed early tonight. Yesterday was a looooong day, didn't get to finish up until past midnight. And now that Boss set me up with changes to the home studio, I have to come home after my regular hours and produce at least five separate newscasts for the next day; three for AM drive, and two for PM drive. Ugh.

I had a pretty disturbing dream last night. I won't put down the particulars, but it was a forceful message that I'm doing too much and that if I don't stop this and walk away, it's going to come back and take me out in a big way.

I've been waiting until I could get a car, but I'm beginning to wonder if I'll live that long.

Before - After

In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )