Friday, Sept. 24, 2004
It's Friday!! This week, good and bad, seemed to go on forever. Just the thought of two days to recuperate is enough to knock my stress levels down several notches.
I went shopping tonight and felt a little like I struck gold. I actually struck black: the quintessential little black dress.
My style is very simple. I prefer solid colors, with little or no ornamentation, no embroidery or lace or fancy buttons or whatever. The dress I found tonight is perfect. It's a soft black knit, very plain, so I can do whatever I like with it; add a scarf, a necklace or pin, belt or no belt, shawl, jacket, whatever. The length is perfect, which is nothing short of a miracle. Most of the time I have a choice of micro-miniskirt or near ankle-length. At 5'4", I think I'm somewhere in the range of normal. So why is it so tough to find a knee-length dress or skirt? It's taken me months to find one skirt and now one dress. I just wanted plain black and washable, sheesh.
The dress was the last one in my size and the price was right, so I figured I'd better buy it while I could. While I was there I also bought some underclothes and a tee shirt. The tee is a print, but the colors are good and will match virtually everything I own. With cool weather coming on, I figure I can pair it with a cardigan and dress trousers or skirt and it will still look nice, without being over-the-top. Now I have to start thinking seriously about buying some new dress shoes. I still can't wear cheap shoes, darn it. I bought a pair from Wally World and while I can get them on, a few hours into the day and I end up hobbling around in agony.
Since housewares typically don't make a quick rotation and get removed from the shelves, I normally wait a while to buy anything from that department, going back several times, talking myself out of it because I can't afford to spend the money, or whatever. (The exception is if I need to replace something that's broken.) In this case, I've spent three months debating the purchase of some dishes, and I finally broke down and bought them tonight. I came home, washed them, and removed all of the psychedelic purple-flowered and mismatched plates, cups, bowls, and odds-and-ends my kids picked out, and put away my new things. Youngest daughter can have the old ones, since she picked them out anyway. The ones I bought are solid color stoneware, yellow ochre with a vintage-look glaze. I like the color and the simplicity of them, and love the fact that the bowls are oversized, since I eat so many salads.
I don't like going on a spending-spree when I know I have to save for a car, but the clothing is a necessity. I still don't have enough clothes to go more than a week without doing laundry; and now that I'm without a vehicle, I have to find a way to make my closet stretch two weeks. I think I spent about $35-40 on clothes tonight, plus another $20 on the dishes. I still need to go back and buy a sweater, too, because I could use the old XXL leather coat I wore last year for a tent. It was big on me to start with. Now it's laughable. Fortunately a heavy sweater is all I should need to make it through most winters here. Of course it would be just my luck this would be the year we get snow and bitter cold again. If it snows, I guess I'll dig out the tent, the heck with how it fits.
The dishes weren't a true necessity, granted, but I can't dredge up a single regret about buying them.
I toyed with the idea of offering Tall Guy the opportunity to cash in his rain check for dinner this weekend, but given that my church has a potluck meal Sunday, think I'll hold off asking him just yet. Besides, the offer is out there. I'm not ready to push anything. We can keep dancing around each other for a while longer and it will be fine with me. My schedule is pure anarchy lately, anyway; and while this is important to me, since at this point it's really not a relationship and there's no way of knowing if it will ever get there or not, I've got to focus first on work.
If Tall Guy calls in his rain check, I'll make it happen, of course. I'm just not volunteering on a weekend when I already know I'm committed to something else, and I'm too tired to jump head-first into cooking a big meal if I don't have to.
Before I sign off, I figured I'd share a fun site I visited. It's called Jigzone. That link is to a picture I uploaded. You can choose from some already uploaded or upload a photo or drawing of your own, and it creates a jigsaw puzzle you can put together. The ideal picture size is no larger than 400x300 pixels, with a file size of 20K or less. If you upload a photo that is outside that range, their system will reformat it to that set of parameters, so I suggest at least that you don't make a picture any larger in pixel size.
Before - After
In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )