Radiogurl a la Carte

Monday, Sept. 20, 2004
Straight To The Heart

It was a long weekend - as I was expecting, my friend came up from the Valley and we spent the weekend getting things done. My yard looks vastly better now and I'm hoping to keep it up now that I invested in a weedeater. I will need to haul away all of the green waste - weeds, grass clippings, etc. Not sure if I will haul it to the landfill or burn it. And lest anyone accuse me of adding to air pollution by burning it, that's what they do at the landfill, too, with regard to this kind of thing.

I shouldn't have a problem obtaining a burn permit, fortunately, since the weekend brought us the remnants of Hurricane Javier. It was a pleasant diversion from the norm - not the typical, short-lived, violent downpour; just moderate, steady rain for two days straight. We finished up the yard work just in time - it was raining before we got all of the weeds and stuff in one spot, but we at least had everything cut and raked into piles.

Tall Guy's going to be here again Wednesday night and we'll be working late together, after which he promised to drive me home. (Hey, finally an advantage to being without a vehicle!) Not sure it'll make any difference. I figure if he hasn't made a move at this point, he's not going to unless I nudge him. Question is, do I want to nudge? And the answer is, I don't know. I know, there are guys who whine that women should get a clue how guys feel - but women rarely get offended that a guy asks her out, solely because he's a guy. When it's the woman doing the asking, it can go that way.

I guess I should stop meandering over my diary for the day and get back to work. If y'all get an opportunity to do so, stop by arc-angel666's diary and leave him an encouraging word. For this time, check your snark at the door. Under all of the bluster, he's got a heart that's been pretty battered over the years.

Then again, I think that's true for all of us, isn't it?

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Type Five
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The above test is actually a little more in-depth than "What Kind of Butterfly Are You?" quizzes. Nothing wrong with those, but this one is a little more scientific. It's used by some companies for hiring and for assessing job fitness. The idea is to put you into work that's suited to your personality, and thus offer you more job satisfaction and your company better productivity. It also is supposed to help avoid personality conflicts between workers. I don't know what the success rate is. I do know that the detailed personality analysis is dead-on for me. Uncomfortable in some respects, but certainly accurate.

I'd certainly be curious to see what everyone gets. And it's interesting to read the in-depth analyses of character, to get an insight to how different personality types think and feel. I know sometimes I come across as cold and distant, when in fact I'm actually scared to death of getting hurt emotionally. You can beat the living daylights out of me physically and I'll bounce back, but nobody gets near my heart. At least, that's what I maintain. In reality I'm not as immune as I'd like to believe.

Before - After

In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )