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Thursday, Jun. 24, 2004

I'm groaning today because no matter what you do, sometimes you can't win.

00 thought she was fired. Boss thought she quit. I managed to get them into the same room, thinking it was a resolved issue and the kid was back at work and everything was kosher. That was as I was on my way out of the door to cover meeting for the news.

(Insert rude buzzer sound of your choice at any time here.) WRONG.

Boss apparently told 00 that he hated to see her lose her job because he's been my friend for years and he knows when she's not working, it falls on me to support her. Which is true. She said he told her, in her words, that she's not worth a shit as an employee. Which is not true, though she hasn't been ideal lately, to be sure. I don't know whether that's actually what he said or not. It might have been, knowing Boss.

00 has taken off work countless times, gone for sometimes hours at a time. It's been for legitimate reasons, granted - doctor's appointments to get her prescriptions and such transferred here, an appointment to get the apartment, etc. She's on a salary so she doesn't get docked for the hours, and while Boss wasn't thrilled, he did understand. But she also has been screwing up some very basic and very simple aspects of her job, consistently, literally day after day. There are some details of the job that are tough to do. But they're not physically demanding, they simply require that you take time and pay attention. And most of them are common-sense based.

In the end, 00 is working today but accused me of whining to Boss about her living with me - which I didn't do, by the way. I tried, as much as possible, to stay out of the situation. Normally I make the personnel decisions for the studios but since the kid's my daughter I knew I couldn't say yea or nay. And in the end, 00 decided she doesn't want to stay anyway - so we're back to her quitting. I don't know if she's here for the remainder of the pay period or only today. I'm getting the silent treatment so your guess is as good as mine.

Boss looks at it that yes, he hired her because of me because business is about networking. It's a fact of employment life. You are naturally going to hire someone first if you have a better idea of who you're hiring and so on. At least that's what he told me. I intended to stay out of it but still get caught in the middle somewhat, no matter what I do. (You'd think I'd get used to it sooner or later, since it's such a familiar position!)

I assume we'll be hiring someone else to do the job soon, which means I get to do 00's job and mine and also get to interview and hire someone new. I already have a migraine just thinking about it.

And 00 announced loudly that she's moving out even if it's onto the streets, that she wouldn't stay with me for anything after I told boss what I did. Even though I didn't.

After this exercise in why nepotism is a bad idea, I've hit the end of my rope. The kid can move out - it's her decision - but she's not moving back in with me again once she leaves, even if it means she's living on the streets. And she won't be getting any money from me, either. This is the last time I help someone and get kicked in the teeth for it.

I'm almost glad it happened though - now I have nothing that keeps me here, working for this station, if and when something better comes open. Now if I can just get rid of the headache that's developed this afternoon and get the money put back in the long run, I'm outta here for good.

And this time when I move, my kids won't know where I'm going for at least three years. In that time they get an education on what it's like to REALLY have no support, like they constantly bitch that I give them.

Before - After

In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )