Radiogurl a la Carte

Friday, Nov. 12, 2004
Feverish Mumbles

Ugh... It's 5:20am and I'm awake. I finally got to bed last night on time and went to sleep... And Granddaughter, who's also sick, woke everyone up at 3:55am. Guess who couldn't go back to sleep even after the baby fell asleep again?

Whatever this bug is, it most assuredly doesn't like me. (I'm none too fond of it, either!) I went to work the past couple of days, functioning on half-power or less, to the point I ended up crashing on the studio sofa for about an hour Wednesday. Thank God it's Friday!

On a different and upbeat note, I have a Friday Find for you. If you ever wondered what your computer did while you were sleeping, check this out. It requires ActiveX to be functioning - I had no problems and I've got Windows SP2, but if you have ActiveX turned off, it won't work for you.

If I live that long (said tongue in cheek), I will have a very busy first week in December. On the 2nd I'm going to be taking the mine tour mentioned earlier. On the 3rd and 4th I'm taking a grant-writing course at the community college. I know my time is limited at the studios, and I know good grant-writers will always have work. Boss offered to pay half of the tuition for the course. His comment was that it would be a wonderful community resource. From other things he said, I have a feeling I'll be writing grants for one of the local communities, as they have dismal success in obtaining grant funding despite dire and well-documented need. I just hope I'm not expected to donate the time. I did that when I overhauled one of their computers.

For anyone who thinks all government operates on a money glut, I can tell you for a fact that it ain't so. The big communities and the federal government, yeah. Some levels of state government, absolutely. I've worked for the government and our training instructor told us while we would be working at peon level, some friends of his worked in XX office and literally worked about 15-20 minutes a week for their $40,000+ a year jobs. And this was a few years back, when that was a respectable wage.

Then you have the flipside in this community, where there's no guarantee that the lights will stay on from month to month. There are a few hours a night where there's no police officer on duty because there's no money in the budget to pay for it. There's no fire department and for a while there was a question of whether the town might lose its outside contractor for fire fighting because they were several months behind in payments. Those are only a couple of things in a list of many, many inequities experienced in this community, and in small towns across the country.

When I've talked about the area being a third-world country, I'm not exaggerating. Half of the homes in the community would be condemned if ever inspected. People live in shacks with holes in the wall and windows boarded up. I know of a situation in which a young couple is living in an unheated garage, have no food and no other resources. She's six months pregnant.

Hopefully that couple will be getting assistance shortly, but given this state's warped laws on welfare, there are no guarantees. According to Arizona politicians, the only people on Welfare are the deadbeats too lazy to work, not the ones who are unable to find work and without the job history to even get unemployment, and not children. Never mind what the statistics say and the fact that 25% of ALL children in this county live in poverty. (*According to the 2000 census figures. Chances are the numbers are higher now.)

Sorry about that digression. I try not to go into too much detail here, and try to keep things upbeat as much as I can, but that is the reality that I deal with every single day. Sadder still, that story isn't all that unusual.

I think that's why I have such aversion to the bourgeois attitudes of our Commander-in-Chief and the rest of the Washington brigade. These people don't vote - they can't vote, since they have no address - and therefore they are as disposable and inconsequential as slaves prior to the Civil War. It was wrong then and it's wrong now.

It's nearly 6am and I'm going to try and get another hour's sleep before I have to go to work. Maybe I'll wake up with a better attitude and less fever.

Before - After

In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )