Wednesday, Aug. 04, 2004
It's late and I should be sleeping, but have pretty much no ambition left at the moment. Boss talked to me yesterday - finally - about his upcoming surgery and how the place will be functioning in his absence. In reality we both know I'll be in charge, out of simple necessity - but he's taken care of the one thing that concerned me and I didn't know how to bring it up to him.
He has two silent partners, one of whom I would NOT work for (specifically because I have before). But the other has a signature on the studio bank account. I don't sign the checks and I don't want to, frankly. By the same token, someone has to and I didn't know who would be able to do the job. I can handle deposits and such - in fact, 00 and I plan to set up the computer bookkeeping system Boss has been discussing for months. It's no longer something we can let go, because I don't have time to hand-write a bazillion entries every time we pay bills. I figure 00 and I will have to sort and make things out, clipping the bills to pre-written checks, and the partner will sign them. 00 already has to handle the billing, so only makes sense she handles other aspects of the bookkeeping, too.
Boss did express his reservations about hiring BJ for the morning show. I agree with his concerns, but we really do need another person. It's kind of a catch-22: either put me on hours that will land me in the hospital, or hire a problem-child who's talented but bound to create serious problems. And the first time he pulls any attitude with me, it'll be BJ walking or me walking - and given what I have to cover at that studio, I don't think it will be a contest. BJ doesn't know the systems and he'll mess with the format and God knows what else. He's an affable personality on-air, but off, he's carrying a potentially terminal attitude that the world can't get by without him.
Got news for ya, bub. Nobody's indispensable, not even me. 00 can do a lot of the things I can do, albeit not all of them. I'm getting her there, though - I intend for her to take over so I can get the heck out of here!
Boss also brought up the issue I didn't think he'd discuss - the real possibility that he didn't know if he will be coming back at all after this surgery. He didn't say what would happen after that other than he intended for (the better partner) to get his investment from the studios. That's understandable. 00 and I would be SOL but the partner's covered.
I think that was the factor that made me decide no matter what else happens, it's time for me to move asap. I obviously am not heading out of here tomorrow, much as I'd like to. At best it will take a few weeks to get stuff together. And there is one advantage to this situation - should the partner inherit the business, whether they elect to sell it or to keep it running, they have to have someone to manage it. And this partner knows zilch about the business, which means I would have to run things, even if only until the station sells. And I won't be doing that out of the goodness of my heart - I will be asking for monetary compensation, and not the pittance I'm being paid right now.
00 is actually not in so bad a position, either - a good traffic girl is the lifeblood of a radio station - and we use a pretty standard program for the job. She will be able to parlay that into work, no doubt about it. It might not happen fast enough for her to like it, but she'll be fine.
This entry sounds pretty cold and morbid, I guess. Maybe I should feel something akin to sympathy for Boss. Maybe somewhere in the back of my mind, I do. But at the moment, if it's there, I'm too tired to hunt it down.
Before - After
In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )