Friday, Jul. 23, 2004
I had another entry tonight/this morning but deleted it. There are just some things too painful to post. If anyone read and wonders what happened to it, now you know.
Sorry, Dangerspouse - no soap opera tonight. Though I would tend to disagree with you on the soap analogy anyway. If it were a soap opera I'd have fallen in love two or three times in these few months, probably had an abortion, been stranded on a desert island with some gorgeous hunk, and gone from rags to riches a couple of times.
I'm still waiting for those riches.
Went last night to get an idea of what it would cost to buy a car. Looked at a handful of newer-model vehicles. Some pretty cars out there, but takes more than I can come up with even for a down payment right now.
I'm going to try again to sleep and see if I can hold it together for one more day of work.
Before - After
In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )