Saturday, Sept. 04, 2004
Inside the Box
I got a new motherboard and figured what the heck, while I was at it I was going for an upgrade. I did upgrade, switched my AMD processor for a Pentium 4, moved up to 2.4Ghz processor from a 1.8Ghz, and doubled my RAM.
To translate that from Geek-Speak, I have a computer that zooms along now. HUGE improvements, much more than I anticipated. It's kind of like the Six Million Dollar Man - Better than it was before. Better - stronger - faster...
I am dead on my feet at the moment but had an extremely interesting day, about which I am still musing. Unexpectedly interesting, in fact. I'm not sure what, if anything, it portends. I'm simply willing to consider some new possibilities, things that never occurred to me before now. They're only distantly related to the computer update, though the computer crisis was what precipitated the situation that in turn precipitated the revised point of view.
I purchased the parts but I didn't put them into the computer. That was courtesy of our studio technician, a new person in town who has made my life considerably easier.
He can't prevent my overtime for the news aspect of my job, but he has picked up a LOT of the tech stuff at work (thank God), at least with regard to the hardware. He's an actual nice guy, cute, in my age range (slightly younger I think) and single. I don't know if he's remotely interested, but we spent the day together and covered some pretty intensely personal subjects during the extended conversation. Nothing dirty, and it was really nice. We simply talked, about the things that really matter, things that you rarely discuss with anyone in any depth. Things like family, religious beliefs, being lonely, the importance of love in our lives, places we'd like to live, children, music, work... And we both laughed at the fact that our bedrooms are cluttered with working and non-working computers.
We drove to Phoenix together, so spent on the order of seven hours in each others' company, much of that inside a moving vehicle.
We've worked together before and respect each other's abilities. He's heard me on the air a few times, said it took him a little while to connect the voice. (I sound different on-air than off.) But in this case I threw out a caution light. Since we'd already talked along the lines of very personal stuff, I pointed out that hubby #2 informed me he only married me because I was on the radio. Possibly one reason I still don't care whether or not I'm on the air.
I am not hoping for anything life-altering at this point, but it was nice to just talk to someone without pressures of work. It almost made me think it would be possible to be friends with a man. I'm not quite ready to think beyond that for now, for any number of reasons.
Before - After
In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )