Radiogurl a la Carte

Sunday, Jul. 11, 2004

I'm pretty worn out but most of my stuff is moved back into the master bedroom. I realized, though, that I've really got to invest in a decent desk chair. I'm using an old leather office chair (not a desk type, one of those damned things designed to make you so miserable you'll agree to anything once invited into someone's office) that really is awful, not to mention tough on my back.

It's been cloudy all day and there's been a lot of thunder and lightning, but far as I can tell, there's not been any rain. I'll grant you that I've been tied up with moving my stuff so I could have missed it, but generally when it finally does rain here, it rains. I'd know it in no uncertain terms. It sounds like a locomotive hitting the roof.

The big fire is largely contained now, thank God, enough under control that the town has been declared safe. While there are no guarantees in life, it sounds like my friends north of here were granted the miracle they needed.

I am operating on auto-pilot at the moment. I'm tired, for one thing, but also have been dealing with some topsy-turvey things in my personal life. I haven't decided whether the latter is good or bad, but it's definitely wreaking havoc with all processes that require logic and objectivity. And no, sorry, this one I'm not sharing with the world. I haven't even shared it with my family at this point.

The clouds outside might not bring rain tonight, but at least they bring its hope, and chances are pretty good that we'll be getting rain within a few more days. It's not likely to be an end to the drought, but it will at least permit us a short reprieve.

Before - After

In the grander scheme of things, no soul can truly be replaced. Each one of us has a place in the universal tapestry. We each contribute our own color and texture. When one thread is snipped too soon, it distorts all the threads around it. Other lives can unravel and tear. If the wrong thread is ripped away, the whole fabric of life becomes dangerously fragile.
- LeiLani, aka Radiogurl aka Bright Opal (1957 - )